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Rest in peace, Mr. Susumu Yokota.

When my father passed away, people said "he is watching you over." I'd like to think that, but I don't really believe in any religion. The closest I came was when I used to listen to Bad Religion for one summer in junior high. Anyway, I do enjoy the traditions and customs that come with religion, like going to Shinto shrine on new year's day, visiting ancestors' graves, or even Christmas. These are great ways to spend time with family and friends you love. I think likely there is no afterlife. When someone dies, that's it. No consciousness. Nothing. Complete darkness, like when you pass out after drinking too much tequila sunrise watching sunset and next thing you know you wake up in a rain, in between that, time passed but you don't remember. Dead blank time. You will never get to talk to, touch, or see the person who is gone again ever. Forever.
But I'm not sure, maybe there is. There is heart pumps blood though your body. How does your heart pump? Where does the original source of energy that pumps your heart come from? When someone dies, where does that energy go? Maybe that energy goes somewhere else. I have no idea and I'm no where near an expert on this, let alone using my second language to explain this deep stuff. Looking at nature: water evaporates and forms a cloud and rains, on repeat, or a tree dies and falls over decomposes, back into earth. It seems like that the energy is re-used somewhere after someone dies? Reincarnation? Possibly.. But i really have no idea.

When someone says, "your dad is watching over you," I always thought, but I have two brothers, and my mother, and my grandmother. How can he watch all over of us at same time??? but then, a picture would pop into my head of my father relaxing in a comfortable Eames chair, petting my deceased cat on his lap, in front of dozens of surveillance camera monitors (one monitor for all of people he loves), drinking cold sake and watching all of us at same time.

But then I thought, I don't want him to see me and my girlfriend having sex!!!!!!!
But maybe the monitors have parental control built in so it will blur when we are engaging in activities that we don't want the deceased to see, our subconscious sends the signals automatically. No problem