Is it bad to think about other things during sex? Sometimes it's a one-way street, sometimes I feel all the good that's coming into me, but can't think about what's leaving. Sometimes I think he looks like an animal or fat or like a stranger. I bite my fist and turn my head to the side, I can't help that. But when it's new or when it's regular, sometimes I'll think about how I ended up there, or about shooting victims, or about the way you get pulled along in your life, like when he pulls me to the bottom of the bed. The bed's like an ice flow, and I control every inch of it. He doesn't always know it, but he's doing what I want, and I don't even have to want it. When he goes to throw the condom in the bathroom garbage I check my phone, I check the news, and kind of think about nothing, or feel scared or good. [out sept]
Posted by Dan at July 20, 2012 3:16 PM